Sunday, December 31, 2017

New years goals

1.  Be socially confident
I am worth knowing, i'm kind and a good friend.
2.  Workout variety
Strength comes in being well rounded
3.  Be present
Life happens off of social media

my Taylor swift song

One thing i'm jealous about it how she uses music as her diary, and they can be deep but so vague at the same time.  I wonder if i could do that?

The wall keeps moving up, climbing
the routine points out the steps, 10,000
Side slide into peace, into new and
forest
admittance one, just 1,000 thoughts
breaths and heartbeats, 50 at a time
close my eyes and I'm
forest

Green and blue, look up its rhyming
Nothing to get back to, no climbing


Tuesday, December 26, 2017

Success is just over the hill of failure

I found a really good quote before my last marathon in October, it was from the runners world instagram and it goes: "Many of life's failures are people who didn't realize how close they were to success when they gave up."  -Thomas Edison

Isn't it so true that we give up when its getting hard?  Usually near the end of what we started?  We don't give up in the beginning, when its easy, we give up when we are close to success, its a decision.  In pain or struggle, of course the logical thing we tell ourselves to do is quit.  In a mile, its maybe that last minute, in that race its usually the dead zone before seeing the end and having gone so far into the pain cave.

I really loved this quote because it spoke to me, right before setting off on a marathon that i KNEW was going to be hard to finish.  I had to make that decision ahead of time to not let the little voice in my head make the decisions about when I had "nothing left".  I wasn't going to listen to it when it told me I was slowing down and success was not possible.  These times came up around mile 22.  I wasn't going to be a failure though, I was going to know that I was close, that I was SO close and that stopping or slowing down would feel worse than continuing in my very uncomfortable state.

Now, a few months later as I'm training again, I'm not going to let myself talk me out of what I can do.  I won't sell myself short because success is right after the hill of failure, you just have to claw your way over it!